Sadness For What?

This is kinda confusing, Its like sadness coming from inside enraging because I am slowely drifting away from a world that I do no know anymore. While very inside of it seems to be connected and know how to let go of the drama that happens on the inside of it, for some reason it isnt that easy for me. I said I was a crazy psycho bitch but that doesnt mean it is a good thing. In fact it kinda of sucks. But slowely I am realize I dont want be part of that kind of world anymore. I want to turn onto a new leaf one that is happier and one that i've always wanted to be. I cant do that if I am surrounded by people who are so unreasonaly harsh to me and maybe in all reality maybe they are just joking around but i've told them many times that I...you know what forget it xoxo gossip girl